Editiing

Hey everyone,

To recap on what I said last post, I want to start vlogging. I know quite a few people are doing it. The reason why I have decided to do so, is I'm getting a puppy. So I want to view back once he's older to see how he has grown, or when I have kids of my own to look back on. Even with a future dog, to view on how I trained or something.

So today, I'm picking out and editor, I've heard really good things about Filmora, So its the one I decided to download. It is free, but sadly, there will be a watermark, unless you pay for a licence. Which I will be doing this week. I think this is a great idea and investment. Specially for something towards what I've been wanting to do for quite some time.

I will be posting the videos in here as well, but to keep an eye out, follow the link below.

NM

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The Future

I want to appologize for not being pro active in posting. Life has been quite busy, and it will be remaining that way.

I have an idea of what I want start doing in the next month. I hope that you will join me on this journey!

vlogs

Vlogging has been a huge thing on youtube recently. Ive been thinking about doing this for a while now.
With something being added in my life. A new member, I thought Id vlog it. So I can see how life and how fast with growth and training goes.
My plan is to use youtube as my host, and link it to here.

Ok, ill say what a big change is in my life. I am...
Getting a puppy!

Catch up...

Hello Everyone,
It's been quite a bit. I have had lots happen in the short period of time I have been away.

Um, lets see what did I end off with in my posts? Ah yes... the Cookie jar.

Well, I did fix whatever issues I do have with my grandma. I still decided that limited contact with her is what I still need. As I don't want to be overwhelmed in her presents. I did actually go to Ontario on a business trip. Did some family visits, as well as a few friends. Including my 86 year old grandmother.

Um, What else..... I'm now working full time with my father. Which is an amazing oppertunity, def better than working at Dairy Queen as a supervisor. better hours, pay and working on benifits. What do I do? I am Human Resources, I hire, fire and deal with people.

I do plan on going to Africa in January. ticket is booked. I'll also have a bit more info on what the trip will look like, and what I am looking forward to. What I expect on the trip. Then I will do one after my trip on what I did for me.

Sorry for the short post. But I guess some post is better than none at all.

Until next time,
Noah

The Cookie jar

Growing up, did you ever reach into the cookie jar and either two things happen. There aren’t any cookies, or your mom smacks your hand? Telling you its too close to dinner and you will spoil your supper, or that you did something wrong. Told you only way to get that cookie is to fix that issue, to repent to what you did wrong. That’s been me these past two weeks.

How do I start…. Well guess I’ll start with the hand smacking. I’ve lived in this town for two plus years. I wasn’t a social person to begin with. Most would blame the fact I was homeschooled. I never give myself the opportunity to make those friends. In previously, I told you about how in my former relationship, I pushed away majority of my friends. Due to the fact of that relationship I was in. After it ended, I never felt so alone. I filled my time with more family. Which is what they are here for, and also the friends that I made in the mean time; or those who decided to hold on to me. No matter what I went through. I started to go to church more. Either my ACC (Alliance Community Church), or my parents. But I was missing something. I started to talk to my fellow youth pastor (mentioned in other posts), about what the young adults are doing. Sadly, its summer and they are off doing their own things. I kept my heart and ears open to whatever is open, or God pushes my way. To which he lead me to a launch men’s life group for the summer.

There, I met a few others in the same boat. Don’t have those friends, Christian, and wanting to grow. Sounds perfect right? I went from in the corner of the couch minding my own business, to sharing memories, sharing life. A guy even cried, and it’s the first meeting. We are doing a 33 series curriculum. I think it’s the right path for me to do. After the meeting, I was sitting at my table, the book beside me. Praying about what path God wants me to take. To which is where my hand smacking comes in…. For me to move on, and grow from this series; I need to completely repent, fix my issues with those who I do. This happens to be my grandma. I haven’t talked to her since… um, her birthday February.   Due to things that were said, and done. Two days feeling this. How do work to correcting this? By the time I feel I am prepared to do so, Its already too late Alberta time. Let alone whatever ungodly hour it is in Ontario.

Well, I think, tomorrow I’ll just call her. Get it over and done with. I’ll share with you all on how the conversation goes. I won’t go into full details, but some is better than none.

Till next time,

Noah

Shall we?

Hello everyone,

It's been a couple weeks since my last post. I've been fairly busy. Which is good. Keeps my mind off stuff.

Guess I will share what's happened. I've decided to get rid of a few things my girlfriend gave me. Also, I'm on a online dating site. Talked to only a few women there. But it's a start, and it's a bit of fun.

I've been thinking since I have a bit more time now, I may reopen up my challenge. Posting for 100 days. I want to see if I can do it. If I can work hard on content as well as staying on top of the days compared to last time.

Guess I'll cut it short since it's quite late. Until next time.
Noah

Lustful!

When you hear about lust, you think automatically about sex, right? It’s said that a guy thinks of sex every four seconds. I can’t tell you if that is completely true. I do think of other thinks as well, but sure enough I do think about sex, and a lot of it! I remember my first lustful moment; I was too young to feel… a happy end full result of those moments. That’s what lust is, moments. Recently I talked to my friend Pastor Owen about lust, and feeding into it with my memories of my Ex, Kira. Now for me, I prefer not to talk about moments, or my sexual experiences with my family. Which I mentioned to Owen, His response to my question is helpful, yet challenging.

Let’s call lust over Kira a weed, actually let’s call all lust a weed. So We have life, aka our garden, full of fruit and veggies. It’s beautiful, but you look down and you see a weed. You pull and pull on this weed and you pull off the greens with a bit of the root. Sometimes that root can use its energy to create a new plant. So even though that you got rid of one problem, just another popped up. A continuous cycle of you plucking the same weed, but also different head growth; how can you rid of the true problem? By digging out the root, it’s hard to fight it! Even the holiest men in the bible fought lust, wither it’s a sexual lust, or a materialized lust.

How will I fight the weed problem? Well, I have to wait for it to rain to soften up these roots to pull it out. I know what is wrong; I know why I lust, boredom, and loneness, just two of the many more reasons. As I wait for the rain to come, I will just have to keep trying to pluck the heads. Hoping that either the rain comes or an easier head. I will pray to get rid of Kira out of my head, to forget those memories. To remove all lust from my life, to be cleansed. As I wait, I will work on not to think of Kira, both in those moments but also throughout the day.

Until next time,

Noah 

Word Vomit! (Update on Moving on)

Ever had those times that when your talking to someone that things you wanted tell that person, but never had the chance to. When you actually do, it comes out all at once! You forget what you say, how you said it and their response? Yup that happened to me this past Sunday.

Hello everyone,
Yes, I'll get to my story on how my word vomit issue came up. But for our new comers, I do have to say that this is apart of a new series that I'm doing. So you may have to scroll down and read previous posts, or click on the titles: 'Moving On' and second 'Throwing Out'.

So in my last post, I mentioned about planning on talking to my pastor. Which I been wanting to do for quiet sometime now. I go there to talk to one of the four there, it's usually bad timing, or I don't have time to go there. I actually waited for an email from one as well. You have been finding out that my family is a bit crazy. Trust me you aren't wrong, lots of crazy wacky family drama. Which some may believe that it has helped with the feeling of my ex. It doesn't, I can guarantee that! It's been clouding me so I can't deal with it properly, its been to much for me.

So now, lets get back to the main topic. WORD VOMIT! I went to church this past Sunday, and I talked to the youth pastor about the upcoming service I was going to sit in, as well as his kids that he was watching running around. They had an issue with some video playing audio and not both in the first service, to which happened in the second, thankfully they were able to fix it. After the service, I went to the youth pastor and started talking to him that he figured it out etc. He then had a feeling to ask 'How is life?' So I started going off on about what life has started to look like this week, moving (How exciting) and my garden. Then I hit the surface of my issues and it came out. All at once, from my sister, to my ex and trying to work it out in my brain. He talked it over with me briefly, prayed with me and for me. Then sent me on my way, I felt so peaceful, nothing clouded me, that I actually forgot my jacket.

Since then, those topics I shared haven't bothered me. But I'm still up at night thinking, over what might be keeping me connected to my ex. Something so powerful for some women, but mainly for all men. Lust! And that will by my next post. How I will be working my way through that issue, or maybe just what I'm going through.

Until then, See you all and God Bless!
Noah

Throwing out?!?!

Hello everyone,

Thought I'd give a new update on my 'moving on' post. My life is actually quite boring lol. 

My parents got a house in town, which It as a legal basement suit. They asked me if I wanted to move in. To which I did. I love my brother, sister inlaw and my nephew to death but I need my own space. On that note, I was able to move my stuff in and actually have access to some of the things. Pictures and cards that I actually packed. I threw them out. I don't want to be reminded of some of the good times we had. As it also brings the negativity with it. I've also been thinking about going through my items She gave me and slowly weed out those things. Again just a small reminders. 

I've been working on what I want in this life for me. Maybe I should write that clearer. I have been working on what I want! Work, housing, Animals, and family. What I want in my significant other. I know Sometimes that doesn't happen. I can only dream that a woman would be like this. I'm not perfect, just like any other person. So I have to add this. If I want to be sexually connected as well, which happens to be a struggle for me. Since I am Christian, how I grew up you wait till marriage. But that didn't stop me from my connection with my Ex. You know those videos you watch that talk to you about waiting, that you loose apart of yourself? 100% true for me. Of course we weren't.. Fully 'into each other' for better lack of words. We should have. Hate to say it that way, but I'm honest. For what we did, for the flaunting, using it against me to get what she wanted. It was just an excuse for her to get me in deeper into her control.

I heard that a in break ups, women fall the hardest; even if they are the ones who dumped the other. Within six months, they are back to their normal self and is on to the next guy. Where men, it doesn't hit them,but it stick with them for the rest of their life. They slowly go into a downward spiral and crash. What helps is to hang with your guy friends. To which I don't have, pushed all my friends away. Also talking to your pastor/counselor. Which I guess I should be doing. Might help with everything I've been dealing with. Yet I don't feel like sharing it with my family. 

Well, hope you all enjoy reading this, feel free to comment. Till my next update. 

Noah

Moving On!

This is one of the hardest things that I've been through. For those who don't know my life. It's been quite a roller coaster! For those who do, Just sit tight as I share a bit of the background where I am coming from.

My life has been filled with moving from town to town. Following where the work is for my dad. From town to town to across the country. I've gone through times my family has been doing well, to broke, homeless, and completely falling apart. Over two years ago, in one of the times my family were homeless, living with my older sister for the summer till we found a new home. I started to interact with someone from school. Our friendship became serious it formed into a relationship. My first actually. With our lives moving forward, within the month of that decision My family were finally in our own place. 

I found a good job making some good money, and after winter, my family were out of the house, back living with my sister. I had to leave my job, as it didn't make sense with the gas issue going back and forth. My parents stayed three weeks  and went out camping. In that time, I found another job, in the town my sister lived. After the summer, my baby sister and I decided to move out and get a place of our own. Leaving my parents household. We got our own cars the end of winter. I had a job, car, my own place and a girlfriend where we both planned on marring each other. The months moved on, my sister and I decided to find our own places. One of the most beautiful apartments here. Before I knew it, Bills piled up, I lost my car. One of the worse things that I've lived through, but it was the start of my newest roller coaster.

When you loose something like your vehicle, it changes you in ways that can't be explained. My girlfriend and I started to fight like crazy. our two years of perfect relationship was ripping apart. Our dates started to plunder down to maybe once a month. The next thing was my apartment, which I lost. I moved in with my brother and sister inlaw. At this point, We were fighting more than we were talking. I quit my job which I hated, cause I was starting to work for my dad. We decided to take two weeks to of silence. We agreed to no communication to figure out what we wanted. in that time, I lost my only and favourite aunt. We cut the time off by a week, and we decided to cut our relationship short, but to remain friends. 

How do you move on from a relationship that you share with someone for over two years? Share your thoughts with? Share those hard times you go through, or try to forget those things that were said that conduct what your relationship were even built on? Those parts of your body you wish you would share with someone special?

I'll keep you all updated on my moving forward journey

Been a bit!

Hey to those who have cared to continue to check on my blog. I see that some of you guys still care to join me in my adventures.

There has been quite a lot that has happened in my life in this past year. Lets take some time and reflect on.
In October, I decided to join the Eckville Fire Department. It was great to be apart of something bigger than myself. To be apart of a family, knowing they have your back as you have theirs.
This this past year, quite a few of mine/Kira's friends have passed away. If you didn't know last year the Bott girls (from Withrow) passed away in a farming accident. Kira and I had the opportunity to join in for them memorial. A fellow fire fighter that we have had met at a course we had to take, his son passed away. Not only The EFD but Kira and I were able to with our fellow friend, but a brother in the FD world.

Kira's family had a tough year with family members being sick. It put a lot of strain on not only her family but also on our relationship. Thankfully we all made it out of the tough year, and we are all stronger than ever.

I got my own apartment! Ok, ok! My sister and I got our own. Sept 5 we moved in. We left my parents and temp lived with our older sister till we got our own. It was a huge step in our lives. It's been a great 10 months. Then my sister decided she needed to be completely on her own. She moved out at the beginning of this month. Now living completely on our own I could never be more excited about it.
Yet, I've been looking into moving yet again. To a better part of town. Into a newer complex. The rent would be cheaper. I also wouldn't have a shared Laundry situation. It would be in-suit. Which would be a money saver as it is.

My dad kick started his Agri-dryer. Most being direct flame, this is the first of its kind out there its forced air. I started working on this with him. with working at Dairy queen and trying to keep a social life.

Well, I guess I'll cut it here for now.
Till next time,
NM

More Pictures

Hello everybody,
I recently gotten more pictures back from the photo shoot that Kira and I did earlier this month. I wanted to share more pictures with you guys and if anybody is in the area. I thought I would share info so you can get pictures done as well!
Here is the link to the Lady; Oh Snap Photography
Untill next time,
NM

Photoshoot

Hey everybody, 

This passed Wednesday, my girlfriend and I had a good friend of ours take our first proper pictures other then selfies. 

It was amazing as she's getting married this month and well me moving out of town. A good time for us to spend our last few days together. 

I wanted to share a few pictures with you. My favorites: 

Thanks for viewing it, Kira and I had a blast! 

Till next time, 

NM

My job

For most of you, I work at DQ here in town. It was a job to fill my time. But it's become more than that. Recently, I've quite enjoyed it. Joking around, fast pace. It's amazing. But now than that two weeks ago I recived a raise. Which is amazing since I'm still in my probation period. I was so proud of myself till this passed Sunday I recived a supervisor card. I'm thrilled beyond relief. I got a supervisor card, and still within my probation period. 

There yah go folks, between work and my gf I haven't had time to post. Buy I'm to excited to not post Anything for you all. 

NM

Night to remember

Last night, after work my girlfriend came by to spend the night with me. As she's headed off to her family vacation spot in BC. I couldn't think of a better day than last night. We had an early supper. Walked around the beach. We did a lot of talking. 

Talked about our day, family, friends and what we'd like to see the future. Tears were shed at the end of the amazing day. Tears of joy, and tears of sadness. One thing I can't wait for is to see her beautiful face when she comes back. 

I love you Kira!!!! 

My birthday

This post is completely late. But I wanted to post something. 

May 13th was my 21st birthday, which I share with my girlfriend'a brother. Which is amazing to share it with an awesome lil (not so little) dude. It was amazing to be with so many loved ones. My family and my other family, ie my girlfriends family. It was a true blessing. 

June

For some reason, I can't believe it's June already. The year as gone by so fast! A lot has happened in my life these passed six months. A lot of changes for both around me and for myself as well. Some for the the good. It's all apart of growing up. 

This month marks my eight month anniversary with the woman I love. My first true relationship. And I swear it's gonna be the last. We've had an amazing   Times recently and I see myself marrying her some day. 

For those who don't know I started working for DQ two months ago. It's been a great two months. Not sure if I see myself going all the way through. In my life I haven't been more lost then what I have been recently. On what I want to do that is. 

Well I'm heading to bed. Work early. 

NM

Stress

Hey everybody,
My life has been a complete stress ball recently. I got kicked out of my house with my parent. I'm living with my sister in a mobile trailer. It's 5 of them and 4 of us. Its completely stressful, having to deal with everybody in a small environment. I quit my job working for a seed cleaning plant and on my second last day there I got into a accident. Which they've tried blaming out on myself.
I thought I was going to be working for my dad right away. Which from the sounds of it, I wont be working for him till next month. but its been pushed and pushed till now next month. My sister went out to look for a job and was hired on the spot. I went out to do the exact same and I've had no luck.

With everybody fighting going on, My ex has caused issues with my relationship with my present girlfriend and it brought up drama that neither of us can deal with since the stress in our lives. I gave up having my birds.
So much stress going on, with more then what I'm saying but not everything should be put on the internet.

Till Next time,
NM

Happy New Year

Three days late, but better late then never. I want to wish every view a Happy New year. As this is a new year. It's time to look back on the hard, sad, and fun parts of 2014. Take the time to learn from your mistakes, and use it in this new year.

How did I spend my New Years:
I actually got off of work early, and I ran into RD (the nearest big city) and did a bit of shopping and prep. I took my girlfriend out on an amazing date. Dinner, a movie and then roamed RD trying to figure out what to do with our time. We ended up going the the ponds in town as they had a firework display and we shared a few thoughts in out future, what we want to achieve, then what last year looked for us personally.

My New Years Resolution:
I want to move closer to God. As some of my viewers know I'm christian, and I don't ram it down your throat, like most of my BIC and SIC do.
I want to try to remain close to my family. We are all moving away, having a life other then each other. And I've seen most families falling apart cause of this. I and my siblings thinks that this is a good goal for this year.
I want to remain with my girlfriend. We have had the most amazing three months, With toughness from family, friends and health. I know that we are both there for each other and I want to be able to be with her till we both grow old.
Birds, I love my birds so much and I want to grow the number I have ten fold. It's my awesome Hobby and I want to continue it and grow.

Well everybody, thanks again for spending the time to look at my blog, I know I dont post a lot, due to time. But I hope to be posting soon.
Till then,
Noah

#7 looking for me?

Looking for me? Gosh, I haven't had time for anything.  My friends are taking up my time talking about issues. Or maybe it's the girl in my life. Either or... 

I met this girl at school a while back, and recently we started meeting for coffee, one time, she put a bug in my ear for movies. Next thing I know it, I sent her a text to go see a movie, and dinner... 

She's Christian, she's a farm gal and loves family! What better to have a girlfriend that loves what I love. It's not official yet, but I'm pretty sure we will be a great couple. 

Noah

100 Day challenge day #4

DAY #4

So here's a short one. I will create an actual one that has a meaning.

But I realize I passed 50 posts thats more then my Teenagers Life blog and I believe more posts then my previous blog. 

So I want to thank all my views. As I said that this isn't going to be a long one

Tomorrow will post will include what I am up to. Like a book I'm going to writing. And a bit on Camping etc.

Enjoy your night/morning

Noah