I'm up late like usual. I'm thinking to myself, Who I am? How can I be this? Why did I want to do this? As I was asking myself these questions. I felt a tug, how can I fall in love with somebody? How can that person feel the same? How can I chance on who I am? I've changed myself already, why can't I do it again and again?
You see, I'm not a normal person, I have no idea what to do in life. I feel like God is telling me to do this, yet I feel God telling me something totally different. If I didn't mention this before, I got told of opportunity, that I could be working with a vet. Which felt like a dream come true. God opens up a door for me. Yet to be closed shut in my face. Yet I'm confused I get pulled one way, yet to be pulled another, like a huge tug-a-war game. Which it feels like its leaving me emotional and scared. How do I know which path to take? I love animals, I love thinking of ideas, yet I'm terrible at Science, English and Math. To which closes most of my doors.
I've worked in many places. Like Timmies, babysittng in houses and Tv Stations. I've worked at McDonald's, an Ice Cream parlor. Yet I hate it all, other than the babysitting, that was fun. I don't like how the world is going, yet my generation is supposed to be the generation of change. Yah, I see the change alright, lazy, living off parents and acting stupid. Yet how can anyone change them? Change them, change the world.
Yet that still doesn't answer my questions. How can I myself answer these questions of mine? I dn't know how to answer them, I guess I'd answer them as my life moves on. I need to figure out what I want to do. If it's in the work field, or working from home. My life after high school is just around the corner. And To me..... time is running short.
My Weekly question:
So, I'm starting this question thing, I post a question a week, you either comment, or you can keep it to yourself.
How can a person go forward through life, if that person doesn't know what to do?